Sunday, November 14, 2010

Notably Positive

It is, indeed, the time of year when we count our blessings. It is true that we should count them every day- in a way, that's what my Notably Positive blogs are about- but this time of year we tend to try harder, think longer and take an extra moment for gratitude. I admit that I haven't always done a very good job. This week has been... Emotional and trying for me so it's time for me to count my blessings.

We have the Little Car That Could. I know I just posted about this but I'm still grateful that I have it. When Branden told me this past Monday that he'd taken his car to the shop and the transmission was gone, I admit that I cried. But we still have a car. How blessed am I to have the money to own two cars. How blessed am I to have a family who, without a second thought, GAVE me a little car that meets my needs. How lucky am I to have found a husband who does everything in his power and learns new things to keep that car running. The Little Car That Could is many, many blessings rolled into one.

I have a husband who loves me. First off, I LOVE having a husband. Second, all those bitter people I met who told me that marriage changes everything were both right and wrong. Oh, things changed. There's a new sense of security, a permanence that means we'll both try our best because walking away isn't an option. With that, there's a renewed effort to meet needs. I'm not always good at this. Branden asks for little and most of what he asks for is not to give but to let be... I'm not good at letting be. I'm much better at giving. I do try, Love. (Yep, he reads this, too. Which brings me to how lucky I am to have a husband who cares about the things I write and wants to know my thoughts.) I appreciate the efforts I see him making to meet my needs and do the things I ask. I can be incredibly impatient and he still loves me and hugs me. And I love him, too, which makes life just that much better. :)

I have a bed. I don't remember the exact circumstances- maybe Katie does- but Katie's friend once told her that she should be thankful that she has a bed. That has stuck with me and I have shared it with others. If you have a bed that is yours, that means you have a place to live, a place to lay your head at night. It may not be the most amazing mattress ever made and it may not be in the most beautiful house but you have something others dream of. No matter how bad things get, no matter how much you think your life sucks, just remember and be thankful that you have a bed. I have a bed that I share with my husband- see above paragraph if you missed that I'm thankful for him- and even though the *insert strings of swear words here* cat peed on it yesterday and is never again allowed in the bedroom, the bed has been cleaned and there are fresh sheets and blankets on it. I am thankful for those sheets and blankets, as well, and the technology that allows me to get them washed and dried in a matter of a few hours rather than an entire day.

I have sisters who love me. I will admit here and now that I am horrendously jealous of a couple of them right now and it's been an emotional week because I want what they are going to have so badly BUT I still love them and they are sweet enough to include me in what is going on with their lives. I feel so lucky to have been able to develop the relationship that Chantelle and I have now. There was a time that I would have said we are too different to ever be close, but I would have been wrong. And I am so incredibly blessed to have the relationship that I have with Katie. I don't know if I do anywhere near the amount of stuff for her that she does for me and I can never repay her for all the love and understanding she sends my way. She's an amazing woman and when I called her to cry, she let me and helped me feel better as only she can. I am thankful for Bekkie and the knowledge and wisdom she has to share. We don't talk as often as we should but I enjoy every conversation. I am thankful for Carrie and all the support she has given me. I am thankful for Christina and the sweetness and love she has in her heart. I miss her hugs. I should note that I am also thankful for my brothers and their wives and my sisters' husbands but this is really about my sisters. :)

I know this isn't quite like my other Notably Positive posts but these are some things I've been thinking about. These things have brought me feelings of gratitude and I needed to share.

3 comments:

Sunset Stanley said...

Thanks for sharing! I love how you can find the positive in every situation. I've missed your posts. I'm glad your back at it, wedding pictures or not :)

Mindy said...

What a great post!! A lot of these same things have been weighing on my mind lately too. I love it when Merrill says something about what I have written or a pic I have posted. I know he doesn't always have the time to read, but it sure feels good knowing he cares.

Katherine said...

I love you too! And you most definitely have given me as much as I have you. 2 way street, Love.