Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I Really Can't Compete Here

So there's a chance that out of all the people I knew in high school, I am one of the biggest losers. I want to pretend that I'm not, but the facts kinda stack up against me.

Just to give you a picture of what my friends have been doing: Well, lots of them are married but at least I'm engaged so I'm not too loser-y in that aspect. Plenty of them have children which I think is a lot of work and pretty much automatically makes you less of a loser... Assuming that you're taking care of them, etc., which my friends are doing. We're gonna wait till after we get married to add that aspect into our lives. Then there are the jobs... This is where I'm a big loser.

One friend is a forensic scientist who does crime scene investigation. Two friends are optometrists and one of them has her own practice while the other travels and works in the military. Another friend is writing a novel. Yet another friend just started a vinyl wall art business from her home and her stuff is super cute. (Check out her Etsy page! I love, love, love her cupcakes wall art.) Then I have another 6 or so friends who also own their own businesses plus some who don't own a business per se, but still work out of their homes doing things like beautifying people's hair- yep, that's you, Stacy. Add to that all the friends who are still in school pursuing masters degrees and PhDs in everything from physical therapy to orthodontics to foreign languages and social sciences... I'm sure there are more that I just don't even know about.

What do I do? Oh, I make cakes and cookies. Honestly, pastry chef is just a nice word for over-educated-baker-who-sometimes-does-cool-stuff. And I'm not really even a pastry chef at the moment! I'm between jobs, preparing for a move. GAAAAH! LOSER! I like what I do but sometimes I realize that I actually do have more potential that I just didn't want to use.

And maybe that's what it really all comes down to. I didn't care to use all my potential so I can't REALLY complain that I know all these people who did. Maybe if I manage to own my own bakery/cake shop I won't be quite as much of a loser. And when I'm married with kids I'll be less of a loser then, too. So there are a few things that I can do to work my way up the loser ladder... But I'll probably always be a few rungs down from being a forensic scientist.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are so sweet! But what is this about being a loser? Just because you aren't married (yet) and don't have any children, does not make you a loser! AND plenty on people have lost their jobs in this crappy economy. I think pastry chefs rock! And, you are one heck of a writer. So no more of this loser talk, deal?

Jennifer said...

Unemployment is a hard time. It is just temporary. You will have a great job in no time in an exciting new place. You are a smart, talented young woman who deserves the best. Take are of yourself, I love you.