I've been in an odd, sorta depressed mood today. Last night I dreamed about my family. I don't remember all of it, but I remember that I was playing with my nephew Josh and that he could talk- which isn't the current state of things. I remember talking to my mom, though I don't remember what was said, and I remember hugging people I love. Then I woke up and none of it was real.
I've been fairly happy here in St. Louis. For all the stress, for all the money and job worry, for all the car frustration, I've been happy and have really been enjoying this city. Every time we go somewhere great, though, all I can think is how much everyone in my family would love it. We went to The City Museum and Branden and I talked constantly about how Rick'n'Abby and Katie and Josh would LOVE being there. We went to the St. Louis Zoo and I was thinking about how all my nephews would have a great time there. We went to a couple of farmer's markets and an Asian market and I thought about the foods that my family would like to eat and all the things we would have laughed about if they had been there. I'm having a great time but I do think about my family all the time.
Today random things have been making me cry. Not lots of tears, not big sobs, but still crying. It's a little pathetic actually... Branden turned on CMT's Top 20 Countdown and I started tearing up at some of the not-even-sad-or-touching songs! I'll feel better tomorrow but today I am a little sad.
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