Happy With My Sweetheart

Branden and I have a sort of different relationship. This may sound not nice but Branden didn't originally want to date me. It wasn't that he didn't think I was pretty or great to be around and we were already pretty good friends when he finally told me that he had a crush on me... But he had a really messed up relationship before I moved back to UT- actually the relationship ended months before he told me he liked me. She kept messing with his head, though, and when I moved back he wasn't at all sure what he wanted.

Thankfully, that didn't last too long. I will admit that I was fairly persistent but- I want to believe- in a non-pushy way. I invited him to come to the zoo with me, together we touched sting rays at the aquarium, we talked on the phone when we were apart and I saw him every single day for a month... Then we moved in together as roommates. I admit that I had... motives when we moved in together. I knew we were going to be together. Period. One month later, he knew it, too. Yes, it is my fault that he is in my life and I am so glad that I could show him how someone who really cares about him should act. It may seem strange to place blame for being in what is most of the time a happy relationship. But the fact of the matter is if it had gone badly, it would have been my fault just as much as it's my fault now.

Thankfully, we are doing well and I truly feel that this move was a good one for us. By the time we left Kamas, we were stressed about money and the move and snapping at each other quite a bit. Once we got here... Money is still a stress but we're handling it better. We are getting along quite well and have found that we are quite happy spending almost every moment of the day together. What a great thing to learn since we'll be spending quite a lot of time together in the future. :) I love him and it's so great to know he loves me, too. I'm having a hard time coming up with the words to express how happy I am that I am with him.

Today I went to orientation for my new job- I start working today- then he and I went shopping for the pants I need for my uniform. He held my hand almost the entire time we were wandering around the mall and Target. We joked around and he had me giggling most of the afternoon. He cuddles with me almost every night. He kisses me every time one of us leaves the house and even kisses me in public. :-0 He winks and smiles at me from across the room and hugs me every time I reach for him. These aren't big things, but aren't the small things the most important? He makes me feel special and I hope that I do the same for him. :)